Freedom 29-03-09

Feeling no one will understand Broken steerage not by my hand To unlock my heart I insert the hidden key Bravely turning this releases me for all to see Across my rhythmic heart remains a fresh scar A subtle reminder to never again go that far I can now see my colourful reflection Mind body and soul my empowered protection Standing alone and cold in the Fray A new found me is here to stay This day being one of self discovery Growing and changing on my way to recovery Consciously displaying behaviours assertive Of my sons needs I am ever protective Wary of the consequences to my choices Echoing in my head meaningful voices To be loyal to ones self no longer do I ask why Proudly able to walk now with my head held high Rudder in hand as I break away Faithful to my promise day after day Never again can I allow him to inflict pain Discerning release crying tears of rain Knowing I am in control of how I feel I take back my heart never again allowing him to steal Hard cold rain eventually turns warm and soft Lighter now as my heart fly’s aloft Feeling obligated to carry his burdens no longer Accepting this holistically I grow even stronger Afraid no more allows my wings to expand Expressing my boy’s needs strong I stand Adjusting and changing as required This new assertive self I am inspired Integrity intact as my destiny seeds Consciously preserving my own feelings and needs I look forward to a well earned freedom In the future drawing on ones own learned wisdom With enhanced powers of perception in flight I feel for the first time I see with clear insight