Feeling no one will understand
Broken steerage not by my hand
To unlock my heart I insert the hidden key
Bravely turning this releases me for all to see
Across my rhythmic heart remains a fresh scar
A subtle reminder to never again go that far
I can now see my colourful reflection
Mind body and soul my empowered protection
Standing alone and cold in the Fray
A new found me is here to stay
This day being one of self discovery
Growing and changing on my way to recovery
Consciously displaying behaviours assertive
Of my sons needs I am ever protective
Wary of the consequences to my choices
Echoing in my head meaningful voices
To be loyal to ones self no longer do I ask why
Proudly able to walk now with my head held high
Rudder in hand as I break away
Faithful to my promise day after day
Never again can I allow him to inflict pain
Discerning release crying tears of rain
Knowing I am in control of how I feel
I take back my heart never again allowing him to steal
Hard cold rain eventually turns warm and soft
Lighter now as my heart fly’s aloft
Feeling obligated to carry his burdens no longer
Accepting this holistically I grow even stronger
Afraid no more allows my wings to expand
Expressing my boy’s needs strong I stand
Adjusting and changing as required
This new assertive self I am inspired
Integrity intact as my destiny seeds
Consciously preserving my own feelings and needs
I look forward to a well earned freedom
In the future drawing on ones own learned wisdom
With enhanced powers of perception in flight
I feel for the first time I see with clear insight