I can feel him stagger behind me, his breath on my neck 
I feel it happen and it is a devastating wreck
It's painful and wonderful and humbling all the same
I want to run back to him, but I cannot say his name
It hurts too much
How he lied 
We loved like sinners
And I cried 
You lost me looking for someone else
I fell through the cracks
We broke into pieces
And I fill in the blanks as life goes by
You go here
The weeks go by faster with my plastic smile 
And I cannot even think his name
But that's not what they called him and I still cannot 
call him
No matter what is inside me at that particular time
I feel him in every step I take
I hear his laughter and feel the breezes
But the breeze grows stronger and blows us apart
Ripping out vitals and drowning our hearts
When will I find you again?
I can feel him stagger behind me, his voice in my ear
What were the chances we'd both end up here?
It's the heartbreaking and lovemaking and life taking all
the 
same
And I want to turn around, but I cannot say his name