Adept Facade' 20-02-09

The man who never was Actions and inactions just because Never knowing right from wrong Living in tormented silence for so long To remain a victim I will never understand Choosing to stand alone in no mans land Not embracing help to recover Rather he chose to escape in vodka undercover How does one desire substance over family affection? Love and loyalty of your partner not to mention Would not ultimate justice be to survive in spite? Instead repetitive maladaptive behaviours he'd ignite Trapped a child’s mind in a mans shell Inside demons and monsters they do dwell So much energy wasted on continual sabotage To think we could make it was my fading mirage A stranger that I thought I once knew Now I know not what is true So many lies and endless cunning deception Only now do I see with a new depth of perception Accepting my love and devotion not suitable My heart believes my fidelity and support were irrefutable When you abandoned us something inside me painfully died However refusing never to become a victim alongside You gave up on us, you gave up on me Now in the aftermath I clean up the endless debris I've been protecting myself from the aggression in you From all the hurt and pain you calculatingly do The unrelenting cruelty you aim towards us is so unjust I have not seen any changes in you I can ever again trust Now is the time for me to stand bold and assertive Of my courageous boy remaining vigilantly protective It is no longer just about you I am now empowered to perceive you true Mindful of your rigorous deceptive conducts Your facade’ falls as your character self destructs No longer will I allow you to be the source of my fear Understanding and accepting my future is mine to steer Many fine qualities I now believe I do possess Discerning characteristics emerging with finesse I will no longer allow you in my life to intrude Controlling how your actions and inactions affect my mood I’ve learnt that my needs are of utmost importance Creating changes in my life in an attempt to enhance I leave you feeling rejuvenated and energetic! Being able to express farewell is rather poetic My eyes will no longer see you if you pass on by I feel invigorated and free to finally say goodbye!