Granting Credence 23-10-08

Perplexed I ask, how do I allow myself to feel If I do I'm scared it will make it appear so real Now's the time for me to be conscious of my needs So open the gates and follow where that path leads This heartfelt situation I empower myself to accept To understand tears from which my eyes I have wept As I give myself permission to genuinely let go Everlasting freedom to my soul I do bestow Extricate my feelings and liberate my mind Don’t be afraid of what I may find While being attentive to each arising emotion I recognise my feelings as they play in slow motion No longer in denial, just relax and let them flow There is no judgment as tears I concede to show I allow myself to accept my marriage has finished However refusing to let my sensibility become diminished Embrace my ambivalent feelings and set them free For there is no shame in this I now agree Accepting I gave it my best I gave it my all Discerning release, keen to be mindful as I fall Streaming tears of sorrow along with tears of joy My soul and my will this can never destroy I want to be loved I want to be seen Learning life’s lesson from where I have been Time heals all; there is no guarantee As I wade through the mist I honestly hope I find me!