My feelings I remain determined to investigate
Perplexed I’m lost for how to unlock the gate
Is it fear that ultimately stops me
Or is it something else that prevents me from flying free?
Never stuck for a word as a general rule
Defensively I find my mind such a powerful tool
Like a door with a lock that has no key
How do I break through to the inner me?
I feel like I’m climbing a mountain which has no peak
Exhausted I need to release my fears and learn to speak
As I no longer wish to feel inept
Openly accepting a new emotional concept
To experience feelings I give myself permission
Always approaching with a willing disposition
Don’t be afraid to share with someone new
Give it time for a rapport to accrue
Remember there is no right or wrong
Realise its acceptable not to always act so strong
Allow myself to make this transition
To feel once again is my genuine ambition
All my feelings I yearn to explore
Therefore a robot I will act no more
Freely expressing that my heart often aches
Feeling I’m being punished for others mistakes
Am I really so hard to love?
To feel loved is all I have ever dreamed of
I sense my body is infinitely defective
To heal physically and mentally is my objective
One cannot live in pain forever
During my plight, to be an open book is my Endeavour


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