Inept Feelings 15-01-09

My feelings I remain determined to investigate Perplexed I’m lost for how to unlock the gate Is it fear that ultimately stops me Or is it something else that prevents me from flying free? Never stuck for a word as a general rule Defensively I find my mind such a powerful tool Like a door with a lock that has no key How do I break through to the inner me? I feel like I’m climbing a mountain which has no peak Exhausted I need to release my fears and learn to speak As I no longer wish to feel inept Openly accepting a new emotional concept To experience feelings I give myself permission Always approaching with a willing disposition Don’t be afraid to share with someone new Give it time for a rapport to accrue Remember there is no right or wrong Realise its acceptable not to always act so strong Allow myself to make this transition To feel once again is my genuine ambition All my feelings I yearn to explore Therefore a robot I will act no more Freely expressing that my heart often aches Feeling I’m being punished for others mistakes Am I really so hard to love? To feel loved is all I have ever dreamed of I sense my body is infinitely defective To heal physically and mentally is my objective One cannot live in pain forever During my plight, to be an open book is my Endeavour **Copyright reserved