Secluded Feelings 02/11/08

I felt so proud when you trusted me Trusted in me to set your memories free I believed my love would somehow be enough I trusted in, that we were made of the right stuff Always to you I remained totally devoted Eternally offering you solace I was completely absorbed Of your needs I was both sensitive and considerate While being loving, passionate and affectionate To heal your pain I felt increasingly powerless When you pushed me away I felt betrayed and worthless Between my husband and my son I felt trapped and torn Echoing in my subconscious the vows I had once sworn With your unpredictable behaviour I was so hurt and cautious As time passed I grew even more fearful and suspicious Each time you fell, I felt so alone, empty and lost Hiding feelings of being scared, heartbroken and crushed Lying awake at night I’d feel tense, tired and weary My heart displaying eyes that seemed forever teary I loved you so much then, I still love you now I’m trying to forget you, but I'm not sure how With every day gone by I miss a piece of you A piece of the gentle loving man I once knew The love I once shared I desire to mourn As my heart bleeds hopefully no longer shall I feel torn? ***Copyright reserved