Missing 08/11/08

Born to a world of indecision Why or where would be my vision? Not to have grown as I should At no time given a chance to shine if I could I feel deprived of my formative years Never given an opportunity to express my fears Did anyone ever care if I felt hurt? No, instead my needs they chose to desert Why did my parents not show love for me Was it me they truly chose not to see? I did not choose to live and suffer I did not desire to always have to be tougher Forever questioning, what had I done wrong Always feeling I really didn’t belong Like the keys that don’t secure the lock My clock has no fuel left to continue the tick tock No one seemed to care how hard I tried Neither did it matter how long I cried To act as the sentinel I was taught For my own safety or needs never a thought As I grew my heart did bleed and ache I remember thinking maybe I was a mistake My parent’s warmth and love, why did I not feel Instead it was my dreams they chose to steel Nobody was interested in how I felt inside The sorrow I endured it never did subside I find it hard to accept I was abused All my childhood years it was me they used I feel pathetic but I know in my mind I’m not Many of my early memories I know I have forgot For all those years I yearned to be nurtured Instead in reality I feel like I was tortured I struggle to find anything to measure my worth I feel like it wouldn’t matter if I wasn’t on this earth The little girl that never was forever lost in the abyss My parent’s love I feel I will always miss Never feeling the luxury of safety I do grieve In the arms of someone special I yearn to weave I long to feel someone’s unconditional love for me Loving me for all that I am and all that I can be **Copyright reserved