I'm trying so much to hold on
to the knot I've managed to tie
grip is steady at least for now
if I fall I think I'll die

Moving ever onward
sorting out my head
my mind understands perfect
its just my heart I dread

this was so much easier
when the truth was still unknown
I could hide behind a smile
if my heart i had not shown

but I opened up that door
and let you in to see
my deepest darkest places
that no one sees but me.

the part that really kills
is when you have to go
the game of pretend is over
I try not to let it show
 
Im tryng to snap out of it
cuz believe me its no fun
it smothers me in the nite time
when I have nowhere to run

how long till I'm up and over
this valley or mountian walk
till my heart dosnt break 
everytime we talk