Helplessness

I’m so sorry dad I broke my promise time and again I still haven forgotten him My heart still yearns for him I know it’s wrong And I am at fault Why can’t I let go of those memories? Do I not love you more than a mere mortal? I have failed you And I still love Him Yes I really really do My dreams come alive with him It was never meant to be And I have to forget It’s all because of our differences And my desire is to love you over him Why haven’t I let go? I have tried many times Every time I hear a love song Memories floods back, and I weep The truth cannot be denied I still pine for him return I cannot lie to you, or to myself My heart refuses to listen People say its crap But my hearts tell me otherwise I cannot comprehend why my love for him cannot surpass that I have for you Why do I have a weakness for him? There is an urgent need to forget So my heart lies only with you Yet I can’t seem to The terror of telling you I rather love you It’s all so real And I want to love you so Yet I hesitate due to fear Its paralyses me so This is not a song of love But one crying out for help What I dare not pray out loud To forget and move on