What I Envisaged

What I envisaged (was beautiful love) I never got Where my dreams fell thru The fear of getting cheated Guess u r still not totally forgotten And I miss u so Lies and deceptions fail my weeping heart When will my heartache end? When can I really tell others u r totally forgotten? What really is true love? Except where there is a higher being Where mortals stand scrutinizing Night after night I laid in bed dreaming of u Returning to me, and I into your arms When will my dreams turn into fantasy? (my dreams and fantasies desert me) Will u lie to me once again? The ache I feel Nobody can understand The buckets of tears The misery of love I loved to fast and too well Also do I regret my decision Love songs sung And day comes where reality Stamps on me Missing someone is not everything Its about submitting to a higher being I find it so hard, to let go Ohh, I’m so sorry Why cant I move on? Even when my heart meets someone new I can never fully love him, Without being reminded of our past Why cant I move on like u did To push me aside and act nonchalant? I have loved and lost Yet my heart yearns for lost love to return My greatest regret was to let go To let go of someone I loved so much Yet when I left u weeping, My heart stayed on No amount of self-will can will my heart back Once its there, its there U will never imagine how I loved u Yet I had to leave And now I am forced to forget Cos of our differences I don’t want to leave really Neither to forget The sweet memories are all I have But to destroy them cos I love Him Its not a sacrifice I guess How can I even love a mortal more than Him? Cadence V. Leigh