a mother '[smistake

was i born to face terror of this unfaithful world. to be cast aside and move from homes to homes in the arms of another man. not thinking and not knowing what i was going through. for through my eyes they saw a girl that was just bad. bad i wasnt but reaching out and calling out for help was what i was doing all those years. afraid to go to bed for the bed bugs would bite,or the buggie man would come and get me in the middle of the night. a little girl i was with no one to speak to. afraid to speakout for iwas beaten to silent by the first person itold. who knows the pain i carry if they have never being there. a place that no girl or woman expect to be. afraid to love another man afraid to get too close are to even be in a relationship. for years i carry my apin and anger hidden inside me with no one to speak to and no one who trulely understand a victims pain. a victim of rape and atempted rape i am. was raped by the one i grow to just and the one to whom i belong. the one that should be protecting you from arms way. step father coming into my room late at night with no close on . told my mother, but she said stab him if he tries to touch you in any way. later was told by your own mother you are jealous of her husband. hit with shock that she never really believed me that he tries to rape you. the hurt i feel is grater than any other pain. the pain of loving her for her mistakes as a mother. face with your past every time you look at her or even speak with her. for my mother is still married to the man that almost took my virginity.my pain will never heal untill the day i can forget the past.