Life Now

Life now is like a roller coaster. One minute my parents are Telling me, "Great Job!" The next moment they are Yelling and screaming at me Because I do everything Wrong in their eyes. Always being blamed for Something I didn't do. Life now is like slavery. Always being treated like a slave, "Do this, do that!" My parents always talking About eachother when they Are alone with me. Being the child that respects My parents, I keep My mouth shut. My mom is always telling Me to stop complaing. She always says, 'I don't Want to hear it anymore!' Well you know what Mom?! I don't want to hear it Anymore either! Always being told that My brother acts the way He does because I taught Him to act that way. My mom will be in the car With me and my brother, When he starts to make Some annoying little noise. Then I politely ask him To stop and then he gets Mad and starts to talk About me as if I'm Not even there in the car. Then I start to cry. My mom tells me that I provoke my brother To yell and say Mean things to me. My mom then tells me to Stop crying and acting Like a baby. Its hard when your dad Takes text messaging off Your cell because of the bill. Its hard because you talk To these people who are All in their 20's and you Are 14. They are the only ones Who will listen to you And who understand What you are going Through because they Went through the exact Same thing. Then my father asked me, 'What did you talk about With these people? They don't Even know you. The next time You need to talk about something That is bothering you, You come talk to your mother And I. I can't talk to you When the problem is YOU. My parents just don't understand. They just say they do. My dad grew up in a Christian Home. My mom grew up in a Jewish home. My mom used to Come to church. She doesn't anymore. They had solid backgrounds. I'm Caught in between. I'm all torn up Because I know that if my mom and I die In a car accident, that I will never see her Again after death. Life is now like a roller coaster. Doing loops and flips without stopping. WILL THIS EVER END?