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Once you asked me,.,. 'what do i mean to you?' i didnt no it all then ,.., but now,,,.,. i think i do all the things i miss n some i dont.. will i ever forget.. i think i wont cos its like this you see ...what you meant to me.. you were my inner strength ..my luxury.. my dream whilst awake.. i wnated you more than that proverbial 'fat kid' ..who needed cake.. my body aches.,.,neck all gravvelly when i stretch innerness mt .. makes me wanner retch that feeling way down there.. something missing.. but to find it,.,.,. where.. i keep closing my eyes... stopping... thinking of you times... (one that popped up) that once...you went... ...shopping.. i dont miss that.,., i miss ..more...most.. your flowy hair..sometimes precisioned.. your outfit .,,. this n that.,.,well decisioned.. you were always crisp.. no matter what made my smile inside.. delighted at what i'd got you had many faces..expressions.. the one that made me laugh out loud most.,., was the 'serious face'... .... now.. sadly.,.,just a ghost the harder i think.. the clearer you get.. but you remain out of focus... i'm still not ready.. yet you were my angel my heart beat my One the one id come to first even tho' do.. needed done i feel some what contented having gotten rid of .,,.,.stuff,..,.,that was formenting im still not ready.. to face some faces certain places i think im kinda.. lower.. written all over my face.. disgraces.. i tried to harden.. ... stem this angel from my mind.. i thought my brain could maybe do it but my heart.. would find it most unkind.. you were my angel swhat you meant to me i have loads more inside ..but pretty soon.. eyes'll not able,.,.,.to see why do we do it,,.,. lay out our .,., fragile hearts cos when two hearts joined as One,,. kinder dont work.,., when one departs a lonely albatross time after time .,,.time after time.,.,(stolen.,.,C-L) comes back to a rock,.,for their One if their One doesnt come back too then,,,. their nest making,.,.., days,,. are done. ~ kjnme4km ker u4emjmrnpu;rnmpouhmneyujnom goes to bed.. note to self*** ..,., needs more work...