one day it will be ok, i'll ignore all you say

the question is, where do i start? you did a good job, tearing me apart. and now you've left me all alone no one on the end of the phone. what u did, it hurt me bad just 16, left so damn sad why do i feel i deserved what u did i wish i could ahve run and hid six weeks after my family fell apart u told all i had, where is ur heart? i was young and u were old u said i'd die if i told so, here i am again,pushed 2 a blade i had no control, it was u who made made me hate this world again a hate for u, and all men. i still cut if i think of u something triggers, what u used 2 do i'll take this pain out on myself i will suffer, and my health the world keeps turning,around me here i will fight u despite the fear u have killed me once before it's hard to do it anymore. the tears fell down, and i crumbled everything u said to me was mumbled u won't hurt me anymore you got right into the core i am getting all control back gaining everything u lack i will learn to trust once more now i've walked and shut the door.