the anger
the tears
it all wells up inside of me
waiting for the weak point
where they can split at the seams and it all comes billowing
forth
to ruin my world
to make me alone 
no one to hold me
noone to help
all alone 
by myself 
trying to make it on my own
and failing miserably
am i happy by myself?
would i be lying if i said no?
i wonder if people can see it in my eyes
the longing for friendship 
a hunger needing to be fulfilled
i wish i werent alone
i wish i were surrounded by those i left behind
those i love
those that i left against my will
all alone with my thoughts
self-entertainment only carries you so far 
before you begin to doubt
to doubt yourself
your friendships
everythign you stand for
will somebody ever care?
i wish it were over