I long for a day
when the sun shines on my face
as I walk along the beach
with the sand between my toes

If only it were that simple

I really long for a  day
when the beast inside 
disappears instead of me

I really long for a day
to feel what it is like
to feel without the beast
carrying me away into the darkness

No ones knows the real me
except those who also suffer
with the beast inside

I truely long for a day
when the real me can be seen
but who is the real me

I try and think back to a day
before the beast consumed my soul
has it really been that long
25 years were did it go

I desperately long for that little girl
to win the battle with the beast
and stand here today
as a whole real me

I desperately long for help
but then someone without the beast will see
maybe everyone without the beast will see
and really be alone instead of just feeling alone

I should be happy that the beast today has dried  
But with my teeth clenched and skin afire
I long for the beast to return
to erase me and my hatred of me