April 20 2005

mommy said i would be okay
as she grabbed my hand
& told me what to say

i opened my mouth to speak
but no words are said
& she told me i was weak

i tried to tell her i didn't mean to
but she ignores me
& says how much i hurt you

mommy kept yelling at me
she still does
& it has been worse lately

i want to run away
but where do i go
i have no where to stay

i can't run from mommy
for she was like my step-daddy
they were both crazy

what did i do wrong
for them to hit me
& tell me i didn't belong?

i tried to be good
i always listened
like a little girl should

it doesn't make sense
why i was the only one
who didn't get a second chance

i always got the beating
though they did the wrong
i felt like they were cheating

maybe i deserved it, like i do now
i am a horrible daughter
& i know exactly how

i whined as you hit me
i should have kept queit
& closed my mouth tightly

now the only thing that escapes my mouth is a sigh
& you then ask me why
what reason do i have to cry?
to inhale the smoke & get high
trying my best not to choke on my words & die
i open my mouth and i let out another lie...

forever yours
 -Lilly-